Auckland

I’m finally with my darling Tash in Auckland, I’m sorry it has taken so long to update my blog. These past couple of days and nights have been amazing and I know why I am so in love with her. These feelings far exceed just her gawgus looks, Tash is intelligent and is very opinionated I find it cute when she doesn’t know what big words mean but I love how she can still be smart without having to use them, she also has goals and aspirations that she wants to achieve, I think that this is not just an amazing thing to have but something that can help me to. The other things that confirm my love for her is the small things she does for me e.g gets me drinks and asks what I want to watch on tv, the moments where she snuggles up and kisses me on the cheek it makes me warm and tingly on the inside or the fact that we can simply snuggle and not have to say anything without it being awkward. 

 Tash and I both share a past of horrible relationships in which we believed we were in love, tonight me and her discussed these relationships to further understand one another this has in fact been enlightening.

My time away from Christchurch has also given me a break from all the shakes. Auckland is so tranquil I find myself noticing things that u don’t often get in Christchurch for instance I’m sitting on Tash’s deck right now and as I type I can hear dozens of crickets to the inhabitants of Auckland they are probably annoying but to me they sound like piece and relaxation. I look up and see an abundance of stars not often when I look up at home do I see so many I find myself amazed at the constellations and star signs I can find. The peacefulness could be helped by the fact Tash doesn’t live close to a main road but still this is bliss.

The biggest thing that has happened while I’ve been up here to me is that me and Tash have brought each other promise rings which is cute and also a visual aid to our loyalty. This comforts me a great deal.

Any way, there will be no piece of writing in this blog and I apologize for that but I do hope my drivel about my Girlfriend and Auckland suffice for now. I promise you some writing in my next post.

God bless you all

Joshua

Quiting smoking sucks

hey guys

sorry i havnt posted for a couple of weeks i just havnt really found the time lately, theres not much to update on really. its been a month and abit and im still looking for a job, so close to going somewhere and saying i will trial for free because if a hundred c.v's wont do it then thats got to. Also these past weeks ive been trying to cut down on smoking due to money and health issues, but its going terribly, its almost lamentable. i mean right now whilst righting instead of a real cigarette placed in my mouth i have a new electronic one, it dusnt really help but it does help with the physical adiction. I was sitting on my couch one day thinking about how much i needed the nicoteene i was craving, so i flicked my zippo lighter open and stared at the flame, doing so i thought about what else could take my mind of smoke, so i decided to write about the magic of the flame, i hope u like it ;

As i hold you in my hand
My eyes widen in extacy
I know you are untaimable
As you dance infront of me
Your orange body sways
It moves me also
You are mine
Yet you are your own.

what a sad life i lead finding pleasure in looking at fire, perhaps i am to be an arsanist in the future, who knows? one thing i forgot to tell you all is tomorrow i will be going back into a course of learning for the first time since 2009 and i really dont know how i am going to survive without cigerettes and freedom, thats why i was so shocking at it the firs time around i was to interested in getting what i wanted and going to get it even if i had class in the time i wanted it. oh well, they say "third times the charm" but im determined to make the 2nd time my charm. well till next week followers, wish me luck!

J.L. Penfold

My Second Blog- My Love

hello all

the week has passed, and i have felt the erge to blog early all week but have resisted the temptation. this past week hasnt been very interesting for me i mainly sat at home all day with my good friend tom watching movies and facebook statusing about anything and everything i possibly can. I have only been doing nothing at all because im waiting for a response to the 20 od C.V's ive handed out in the past week. my aim for this blog is to let my followers and future followers about the special somone in my life, Tash Ross the most gawgus girl you'll ever meet. me and tash started txting eatchuther 2 years ago i got her number through a friend of mine, who also told me that she lived in Auckland (on the oposite island to mine in New Zealand) we got along almost instantly, id fallen in love with someone id never seen before but over the time we spent txting i felt like id known her my intire life, we could talk freely about almost anything and tell eatchuther what was up in our lives. I first met her on the 27th of december 2010 but prior to meeting her we had to count down the days witch was excusiatingly painful, during that time a wrote a piece of writing that expresed how i felt i really wanted to share that with u guys.

"How far can longing strech its cruel meaning.
I see you every night, but not in the sense i want it to be.
we count down the moons until we can embrace one another.
the thought and only the thought, of holding your body close to mine and feeling eatchothers warmth.
a more menassing thought than that,
is the unbearable wait for your soft looking lips to draw ever closer to mine.
the pain of waiting for time to creep to that slowely approaching day...
is agonizing."

Recently ive also been worried about my darling Tash, not being able to be there in times of need or emense stress is unbearable, especialy when the problems she is having ive had experience with aswel, lets just say fathers are real arseholes. well i better bid you adue for now folks because even though i have absolutely nothing to do, i havent got much else to write about, i just hope whoever reads this will hope i get a job soon because me alone hoping just isnt enough.

till next time :D
J. L. Penfold

My First Entry

Hi There everyone

2011 has opened my eyes a little. I thought to myself about my writing and where it was going. i decided that it wasnt going anwhere staying in my little brown lether journal, thus i began to think about sharing my writing with the world, or of course whoever stumbles across my blog page. as this is my first blog ever im slightly stumped on what to say. so instead of bableing on i thought id share with you a little peice of writing that i made. short but however meaningful it goes like this.

"we are all angels born with one wing, only by embracing one another may we fly."

well there you go my first blog, with my first bit of writing, i wanna end my first blog by wishing every body a happy new year and a prosperus one at that.

p.s if u liked my writing keep posted as i have decided to post a new peice every week.